J’s Wound

Joseph Jaudalso, Marcielle’s student


Winter 2013 semester

Mount San Antonio College in Walnut, CA

Extra Credit

            I am a firm believer in the expression, “Everything happens for a reason.” Reading about the Way of the Peaceful Warrior opened my eyes even more to that. Joy even told Dan while he was in the hospital that it is what you “do” with your wound that will truly define you. It shows that sometimes even the bad things happening in our lives can act as a blessing in disguise. What made me truly live my life to that expression was when I was diagnosed with a rare type of cancer called Greyzone Lymphoma. When I was first diagnosed of the disease, I was emotionless. How was I supposed to react to this heavy news? As the weeks went by my mood ranged from calm, to angry, to sad. I felt like I had nowhere to turn to for help. I was too uncomfortable to talk about my feelings to others, especially my parents. I felt like they would not understand what I was going through. So I isolated myself from everyone. I now realize that that decision was the biggest mistake that I ever made. I only thought of myself being the victim of the disease. I was not looking into the bigger picture. I did not see the pain in my family’s eyes. As the years go by, looking back into my treatment days I realized a lot of things about myself that I would not have been able to see if I had not gone through the experience of treatment and the whole cancer experience. I am not saying it was a “blessing”; I just believe that God had a different plan for me. Now that I am remission I am using everything I can to aware people of the disease. I am volunteering at hospitals as much as I can to give back to the community. And lastly, I would not have had the amazing support system from strangers that have become friends throughout this journey. I would not have met them otherwise, and so I am grateful to truly have those people in my life. Everything happens for a reason; and it is what you do with that that will show your character.